I found this in Peter's online stuff and have been giggling ever since. I am so easily amused! Its like that new stain-stick commercial with the talking stain, that shit makes me laugh every time I see it.
Casey just left for work and the speed-freaks have holed up in the back room. I have not done any tweek and am inordinately pleased with my self. Yay me! On the bright side, meth Rainman put Casey's drum set back together and moved it from the garage to the newly finished padded cell.
I have destroyed mass amounts of brain cells in the past month and am not really sorry to see them go. Maybe I'll end up in a psych ward somewhere sedated and drooling on myself . Not much different from what I usually do anyway hahaha. I am so clever!
I have been in a few loony bins and it's surprisingly relaxing once you block out the muffled shrieks of the paranoid schizos. Don't get me wrong , I have nothing against paranoids, let 'em shriek, schizos gotta live too.
I also really dug the fact that if I wanted to get loaded all I had to do was chuck my fruit loops across the day room and start kicking shit over. It was like a game and a fat shot of Diazepam was the prize. State hospitals are kinda gross but that one was like a spa retreat with psych meds. Sweeeet!
I feel like evicting the tweekers but am too nice to go through with it. I worry that now that Casey is gone I will be subjected to an onslaught of emotion from Richie. UUUGH *gag* I am so not in the mood for that shit! I think if he tried it I might kick him in the balls and that would be a shame. Not that I care about the welfare of his balls or anything :)
I have been getting the flashes of true rage where I fantasize doing serious bloody injury to people around me. It's kinda refreshing like a mini vacation and I feel so centered and calm afterwards. I think the stress may finally be getting to me. It only took 12 years.
Ironically I never feel like hurting myself. I'm sure some of you are disappointed by that and I have only one word to say to you: Lickmeyourepressedjudgementaldouchewastes!
It that even a word? Fuck it, it is now!
To everybody else who isn't runoff from a toxic cunt dump, I love ya. Kisses, Melody
